Days of Old? Naw, Days of Now.

Some of you are so good at being gentle and being intentional to live life in the moment. I, however, am a type A personality. I cannot rest or relax until my work is done. The only problem is - the work is never done. One of the biggest lies that Satan tells me (not in a whisper, but in a raised voice) is: "you can sit down with them after ___." On Monday, after I clean the homeschool closet, I can do LEGO's with him. On Tuesday, I can crochet with her ... just after I organize the kitchen pantry. On Wednesday, once I walk the dogs and vacuum and ...

I push out quality time with my kids because I haven't earned it, and everything will collapse if I stop running. I can't relax unless the house is clean, and if I can't relax, my kids won't enjoy my presence anyway. Well, year after year sure is zooming by quickly and those moments of being present rarely come for me, because of my never-ending to-do list.

It reminds me of Matthew 25:21, talking about Jesus referring to us as good and faithful servants. The homeschool closet really doesn't matter (it drives me crazy, yes, but it doesn't matter). There will always be a reason to vacuum. These days, though - the ones with gourmet ten year old run restaurants and learning to fly drones - they are fading fast.

What will those of us do? The ones that need to check off the list before we can be present? Will this be the year that things change for us? Will we lean on Jesus to set our priorities straight?

I know that being organized and clean are GOOD things. But there is also a healthy balance of responsibility and leisure. I am determined to put down the dish cloth and find it. For my children's sake. For my sanity's sake. For eternity's sake! Who is with me?